Not all storms in life look the same. My storm probably doesn’t resemble your storm, but God works through these all for His glory. I am happy, grateful, free and thriving. This is all God. I am slowly overcoming my trust issues, my struggle with self-worth, acceptance, perfectionism and anxiety. I have the freedom to be myself, to follow my passion to be a writer, an artist and an emotionally, spiritually, and mentally healthy wife and mother. This is my calling in life and it has always been smothered by the very people that should want the best for me. I don’t recommend this but Psalms 27 has become my life line, particular verse 10 “For my father and my mother have forsaken me, But the Lord will take me up.” And He totally has. I have nothing to fear and I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living, despite what other people have done to me. I am free from having to be responsible for others, I am responsible for me and me alone. On the day of judgement, I only have to say I love Jesus and have tried my best to follow his example on how to live my life, I am free to forgive and love people because Jesus’ work on the cross comes between me and everyone else. It is all grace. I can walk in grace for me and I can give it to others. I am Joseph, what his siblings meant for evil, God has worked for good. It is very good. God truly has a plan for my life, He has proclaimed that it is good and that it will give me a hope and a future. He is faithful to complete this good work in my life that He has started. I finally know that I can never earn my own way, I can’t make people love me, and I can’t earn forgiveness, it is a free gift.
Today, let us mediate on Psalm 27. Let the words flow over you and through you and may you also find the freedom to be who God has called you to be.
The Lord is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the defense of my life;
Whom shall I dread?
2 When evildoers came upon me to devour my flesh,
My adversaries and my enemies, they stumbled and fell.
3 Though a host encamp against me,
My heart will not fear;
Though war arise against me,
In spite of this I shall be confident.
4 One thing I have asked from the Lord, that I shall seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the Lord
And to meditate in His temple.
5 For in the day of trouble He will conceal me in His tabernacle;
In the secret place of His tent He will hide me;
He will lift me up on a rock.
6 And now my head will be lifted up above my enemies around me,
And I will offer in His tent sacrifices with shouts of joy;
I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice,
And be gracious to me and answer me.
8 When You said, “Seek My face,” my heart said to You,
“Your face, O Lord, I shall seek.”
9 Do not hide Your face from me,
Do not turn Your servant away in anger;
You have been my help;
Do not abandon me nor forsake me,
O God of my salvation!
10 For my father and my mother have forsaken me,
But the Lord will take me up.
11 Teach me Your way, O Lord,
And lead me in a level path
Because of my foes.
12 Do not deliver me over to the desire of my adversaries,
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And such as breathe out violence.
13 I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
14 Wait for the Lord;
Be strong and let your heart take courage;
Yes, wait for the Lord.