I haven’t blogged in a while because I have a story to tell and the time is just not right for me to share. It is amazing to be on the side of truth, awaiting a miracle but at the same time not understanding how evil is allowed to continue. There are so many things that I have wanted to say, typed up and deleted. The truth will set us free, and unfortunately, some of the ugly truths will be coming out. People have said things against me and forget that I know all the evil they have done, and they call me a disillusioned fool to make themselves feel better. They lie and say that I have been deceived, but the truth is I am a threat because I didn’t believe the lies they spun. The storms the enemy has sent my way to destroy me has only made me stronger because Jesus is with me and giving me strength to face down every lie and refute it with the truth. What was done in secret, will be brought to light. I wanted to pick a knee jerk title for this post, like “how I was raised with a rapist” or “my parents believed a pathological liar instead of me” but thought better of it. Honestly, I raised myself. If I allowed all the words spoken to me by my family to stand as truth, I would be just like them.
Instead, I make a stand. I break the generational curses and change how my family tree looks like. My children will know they are important, they are valuable and will not have people speaking lies over them. My husband and I stand together. What God has joined together, let no man separate. We meant what we said when we married almost 15 years ago, death is the only thing that will separate us. It does not mean that our marriage is perfect, it just means that we are fighting for what is right. When we established our family in 2003, as husband and wife, God has blessed and increased our home, our influence and our little part in His Kingdom. We are not in competition with each other, but standing back to back, fighting together against all that has come against us. No weapon formed against us will prosper.
Those that know me, know I am an intelligent, outspoken, strong and passionate person. I am not a wall flower, and I don’t allow injustice to stand. I can’t change how people treat me, I can only change how I react. God has given me a unique and difficult path to follow, but has equipped me to do so. My story of how I was created to inspire joy will be told, in full disclosure, just not today.